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“There goes the barn!”, as the saying goes. With the current circumstances affecting the world economy, it not surprising that small companies like ours have been severely affected. Dealing with the entertainment industry has brought us to our knees. Clients are closed, some voluntarily, the rest…forced. Revenues have all dried up and continuing to operate is using up much hard earned savings.

Outside of putting out fires left and right like letting go of employees, and retained ones, resigning, one gets the feeling of a sinking ship. The biggest hurdle is wrestling with self-pity and strong feelings of inadequacy at this point. The should’ve’s have taken over and it makes it difficult not to tear oneself to shreds. Hard not to do when you were used to earning millions annually, then all of sudden, nothing.

The unleashing of emotions is hard to stem. More like a dam breaking and you stand there frozen in fear. It is paralyzing, another thing to wrestle with. Believe me, we have been fighting for more than a year and suddenly it dawns on you if this is all worth the effort, time, health and attention that we have poured. I guess, what is more dreadful is the fact that we are not out of the woods yet. There is still an urgent need to fight, but I don’t know if I still have the enough left in the tank to do so.

Want more pressure? We have to think of all the families that are dependent on our company. What will happen to them if we close? Those who have kept faith, who continue to plod along in spite of the pay-cuts, the reduced hours yet the call for more work.

But how does one gain the upper hand given the circumstances? As Eric Draven from the Crow movie said, “it can’t rain all the time”. The question is, can we outlast the rain.