Well am suffering from 39 degree fever for the past week. Thankfully, it doesn’t look like it’s covid, but I used an antigen test and will need to take an RT PCR. Anyway, it pains me to even swallow my own saliva, so really need to sort this out soon.

This past week was tough. My perspectives were already in the wrong place and it was exacerbated by my illness. I had to catch myself when I was about to go down the path of anxiety.

What do I do when things become this way. I count what I still have and be grateful for them. So many times when we fall off into anxiety, we can’t even see what is in front of us. All we see is stark, gloomy clouds and it’s has covered all our perceptions. It wasn’t even a bad week (well except for my fever), as monthly business reports came in. Whereas am still batting 50/50. One company managed to increase profits month to month, while the other one is still bleeding.

The latter is probably pulling my mood down. It has done so for the most part of the pandemic but it’s been going on for a while. I haven’t been happy with it since 2017. I feel that the culture of that company has shifted from being innovators to just plain existing. Comfort Zone from the employees I think. I know I could’ve done something about it, but outside of labor laws here being skewed towards employees, I was still hoping people would change. These were people who have been with us 5, 10, 15 years. But they lost their drive. All attempts to introduce new products was met with skepticism and half-heartedness. I can’t say I blame them. There were several attempts, but execution was poor. So it was shelved.

However, my mindset as an entrepreneur is that one failure after another is not a death sentence. It is a chance to learn and be more efficient! And that all these failures form a path to eventual success. But it is hard, when employees do not share this perspective. I think they got so spoiled, that they didn’t want to rock the boat no longer. Just carry on and happily exist in the status quo. Lo and behold. The pandemic struck and one of the first industries that shut down was that company’s primary client.

Had to let go of most of those employees. Most of the comfort zone dwellers, resigned. Now am left with a leaner and hopefully, meaner group. We have shifted industries as well. We still have existing clients in the old one, but this new one should be great! That is, as long as our partner decides to launch it soon.